Hey there,
Well, they reason I did not post anything yesterday is because the night before was ... horrific. I think that sums it up. Our sweet child fell asleep for just a couple of hours before waking and howling for her foster mom for a good deal of the night. Any time I tried to sit or lay down with her she screamed and held onto me with surprising strength. Not even a bottle would help sooth her. We spent the majority of the night rocking and gently swinging as we paced our hotel room and watched the lights of the city from the balcony. I was thankful for the gentle breeze that cooled us. We were both damp with sweat and her tears. Maneekarn stayed calm as long as we were in motion. I stroked the back of her head and talked gently to her in a language she cannot understand. We finally collapsed on the couch at 4:30am.
We woke at 5:30am. Jeff and I prepared for a difficult day as Miss M. ate her morning feeding.
I don't know how or why it happened, (initially we suspected delirium induced by sleep deprivation) =) but Jeff and I met a happy, vocal, interactive child at breakfast. Maneekarn laughed and babbled at Jeff as she ate. Frankly, she was downright silly. She remained happy throughout the day and Jeff got his first kiss by the pool. Nam-aun played for periods of time without the safety of my touch. We continue many snuggle sessions throughout the day. She loves it - and we do too. I'm glad Jeff finally got to experience her lay her head on his chest and give him a squeeze.
Last night we all crashed at 6pm, and outside of 2 feedings that went without a hitch, slept in until nearly 5am. Today we had no idea what to expect, but were amazed to wake and find a smiling child that rolled around and played with us before wanting to eat. Jeff carried her when we went to the park and Maneekarn is now seeking him out to play - independently. She got 2 full naps and is just now rising without fuss. The bright and cheerful child we saw when visiting her foster home is often standing here before us.
We don't know what tomorrow will bring. We've had a lot of little blessings in the last 2 days.
It's amazing how natural it is to love her. These moments have absolutely been worth the wait.
It's so good to see these postings from you two! Even the hard stuff that you are going through is just one of those kooky parenting blessings! I hope the next few days are nice and calm for you all! Hopefully she was just having a baby dream that set off the chain reaction of miserableness! The picture of Jeff reaching his hand to her with that big grin on his face melted our hearts! I do declare that your family together is all I need this Christmas!!!
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